Sunday, March 27, 2005
CF camp returns
This CF Camp was one of the best camp that I had had in years. The returns and lessons I got from it was simply so MUch. To tell u the truth, I had actually very much felt "forced" to go for the camp initially. The thought of not being able to see and spend time with jo on thurs, fri was horrid. I felt half of the world taken away from me. However, both guan and I know that we had to be at this camp. In my mind, I thought I was doing God a favour by going to the camp, to support and boost the morale of the youths. And so I went to the camp.. feeling so sorry for myself that I had to sacrifice so much of my precious time.
However, the 2 short days of the camp really totally changed my mentality. In fact I'm feeling so childish and stupid. I actually felt great when people recognised and sympathized with my sacrifice. Hey see.. "I'm doing this for the Lord". I felt rather unbalanced when other CF members could not avail themselves to stay. I mean it's like "why I must and why not they" kind of feeling lor.
However, I realised that actually there were many others who made even greater sacrifices for this camp. For Chris who had taken 1/2 day to settle logistics for the camp (when he seldom take leave one) and being such a great support; guan who is definately much busier than me and having more respns; lim yong who was not feeling well and practically did not have a proper sleep through the camp; annie and evon also staying thru though their workload is equally or more shit as mine; cuiyun who could be bothered to come in and out of the camp even though she's like super busy in work and studies n have major test 40% weightage on monday; not only them... but also the com people..mee lin having to study and do tutorials in camp; tongli burdened with great respns in the midst of exam prep in a few weeks time.... and so much so much more others whom I may not know.. these people, they just simply gave it for the Lord and not a single complain.Gosh! Suddenly.. I'm asking myself.. "Hey what a shame I've been."
This camp taught me a great lesson. God didn't need me to be there.. He had so many
other people who were willing to lay their lives for Him.. In fact, it was an opportunity from God for me, not so much serve him, but drawing closer to my Lord. Was I willing to lay my life for the Lord?? This camp msg was for me.. not the youths only.. IT was for ME.
Truthfully, this is a heartfelt lesson. Thank God for teaching me.
On top of spiritual lessons, I had a great time fellowshipping with some other people. Like Jacinth who actually prayed for me..hm.. in God's work, this sort mutual support is just so sweet and encouraging. I had a great time playing murderer and polar bears. C'mon lor.. I was in the 007 bang bang ah era. All in all, personally this camp had made me realised much about my wrong thoughts and ways. Come to think of it, the tiredness was bearable and missing of jo too was bearable.... it wasn't much of a problem. God understood it all...
We had a great time with Jo today. I thank God for everything made well..and 1 more thing I have to add.. the planning of the camp was SUper! I totally enjoyed myself. Praise God!
However, the 2 short days of the camp really totally changed my mentality. In fact I'm feeling so childish and stupid. I actually felt great when people recognised and sympathized with my sacrifice. Hey see.. "I'm doing this for the Lord". I felt rather unbalanced when other CF members could not avail themselves to stay. I mean it's like "why I must and why not they" kind of feeling lor.
However, I realised that actually there were many others who made even greater sacrifices for this camp. For Chris who had taken 1/2 day to settle logistics for the camp (when he seldom take leave one) and being such a great support; guan who is definately much busier than me and having more respns; lim yong who was not feeling well and practically did not have a proper sleep through the camp; annie and evon also staying thru though their workload is equally or more shit as mine; cuiyun who could be bothered to come in and out of the camp even though she's like super busy in work and studies n have major test 40% weightage on monday; not only them... but also the com people..mee lin having to study and do tutorials in camp; tongli burdened with great respns in the midst of exam prep in a few weeks time.... and so much so much more others whom I may not know.. these people, they just simply gave it for the Lord and not a single complain.Gosh! Suddenly.. I'm asking myself.. "Hey what a shame I've been."
This camp taught me a great lesson. God didn't need me to be there.. He had so many
other people who were willing to lay their lives for Him.. In fact, it was an opportunity from God for me, not so much serve him, but drawing closer to my Lord. Was I willing to lay my life for the Lord?? This camp msg was for me.. not the youths only.. IT was for ME.
Truthfully, this is a heartfelt lesson. Thank God for teaching me.
On top of spiritual lessons, I had a great time fellowshipping with some other people. Like Jacinth who actually prayed for me..hm.. in God's work, this sort mutual support is just so sweet and encouraging. I had a great time playing murderer and polar bears. C'mon lor.. I was in the 007 bang bang ah era. All in all, personally this camp had made me realised much about my wrong thoughts and ways. Come to think of it, the tiredness was bearable and missing of jo too was bearable.... it wasn't much of a problem. God understood it all...
We had a great time with Jo today. I thank God for everything made well..and 1 more thing I have to add.. the planning of the camp was SUper! I totally enjoyed myself. Praise God!
# posted by Guan and Ad : 8:54 PM
