GuanAd's Haven

The invisible hand of God has gracefully opened a door;
and slam all other doors SHUT!
A prayer answered when i called;
a clear answer that leaves me with no doubt.

Even though I wasn't desperate in prayer;
even so when I was very much in the lions' lair;
yet He gracefully stood by me;
held my hand closely in His and made me see.

Albeit most of the time I couldn't see You;
most of the time my ears grew weary of Your advice;
yet You always give the cue;
at times when I didn't have a clue.

The invisible Hand of God is nigh;
very nigh to me indeed.

"For promotion [cometh] neither from the east, nor from the west, nor from the south. But God [is] the judge: he putteth down one, and setteth up another".

Psalm 75:6-7

Friday was my last day at Northland. I realised that I was more attached to my students than they were too me.. was sort of sad. I wrote them a poem as a parting gift. Now I am considered as a student teacher. A paid student. That sounds great right? Little apprehensive about being a student again. Can't remember when was the last time I handed in a thousand word essay. Well..
The first day started off with an MC. Yes.. I'm sick again. Have been really weak after birth. Think I already visited the doc 3 times in 6 months. This time the medical bill escalated to $46 bucks. What stupid waste.. thats like 1 tuition session.
Well, it wouldnt have been so if I hadn't played with Jo and almost broke his arm. Yes.. this little boy swung his body backwards and i was holding his arm hard to prevent him from falling.. then there was this "cruck" sound. He cried so hard.. i thought i had dislocated his arm. Was so paranoid and worried. Many thoughts came into my mind. 1. Will he lose the ability to use his left arm? 2. Will he have to be put in a cast. 3. Everyones gonna condemn me for being a lousy mum. Oh shit! I felt horrid and turned to God in desperation. Thank God, Jo was back to his active self after a sleep. Brought him to the doc for a checkup. He seems fine. It was such a scare. So that disrupted guan and my day of events. All my doing.

I wish i could deliver to my responsibilities beter. As a wife, a mother, a worker and a child of God. Oh BUCK UP Ad!

After 4 days, 20 beers, 50 new faces, 1500 miles, I am back...at Bukit Batok drinking coffee and blogging while my vehicle is being serviced. Nice to see my beloved mum/wife/son receiving me - even though he was more interested in the packet of meat buns - at the airport last night.

Ho Chi Minh City and Phnom Penh are cities that everyone should go. Well, they don't have the draw like other countries - shopping malls, "wonders of the world" sights, breathtaking scenery (they do have "breathtaking" fumes from motorcycles' exhaust though) - but they really do have a intriguing attraction. Doubtful that I will go there for work again but even for leisure, I would most certainly be there again.

Read a lot of hoo-ha about the NKF debacle. Actually, I'm not too sure if this is worth so much attention. I just met an interesting Japanese on the plane from PP to HCM who works for non-government organisation (NGO) on international relief i.e. get funds (we are talking about 7 and 8 digit figures here) from companies/individuals to help less-developed countries (LDP) like Vietnam/Cambodia. I'm sure the CEO of this NGO would get paid well, maybe even double that of our dear Mr. NKF. I thus concluded that being over-exposed in all forms of media while courting public funds probably led NKF to its downfall.

Maybe I should volunteer myself as Mr. NKF and draw just one-third of the pay, fly business class (instead of 1st class) and one-quarter of the bonuses. Just focus on corporate funds, make a hoo-ha (through the now-famous reporter) if some rich local companies fail to pledge and commit financial support.

Corporate strategy 101. 100% success. And transparent as well.

This day, I am having my dinner of cup noodles now, updating the blog. Long long time since i posted anything on. Well.. school's life is as busy as usual. Today am particularly upset. Got myself so angry and hurt over some students who refused to be helped. I shalln't elaborate. Fortunately, the remedial and 2 other students made up for the naughty ones. In that class, this 15 yr old boy was snatching fren's pen, taking their bags and walking in and out of class. OMG rite? Think he needs constant action. like a hyper 5 yr old kid.

Aniwei.. enuf about school. Its one of those days where am all alone.. guan's outstation and jo's at the next block. This time i feel all right. Think i am beginning to get used to this. Afterall, this long day has drained me too much. Household chores will be left for 2mr. .. I passed my Maths Mastery Test, on the 2nd attempt. Thank God. There were still about 50% who failed. However, I also failed my advance driving theory. To which, i was bitter and sore.. for not clearing it. I was so confident, i finished in 10 mins. In the end, i had to endure the embarassment of the invigilator telling me to study hard and not just glance through in front of the other 20 over candidates. so ma loo..

Today's papers told me NKF CEO earns 25,000 a month. WOW.. its my 1 yrs pay lor. What life! Well.. good for him la.. but for me.. its to charge for the next 6hrs before a brand new day of hustle and bustle. Nites.

Thanks to Yvonne, I think I'm hooked.

Your EQ is

120 50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

Withdrawn...certainly. Quite accurate. Why am I doing this?

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant. Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle. You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs. For you, comfort and calm are very important. You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection. You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

Tempted by Yvonne Seah to do this. Not too bad but sigh...still not good enough for Mensa.

Your IQ Is 130

Your Logical Intelligence is Exceptional Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius Your General Knowledge is Exceptional