GuanAd's Haven

Remembered the monotone lyrics on Radiohead's "OK Computer" album (the top album in the last 20 years by Spin). Yes, these would remain my objectives for rest of 2005. This year is not entirely done yet. Pass my driving? Cut away excessive credit cards? No big deal! This year is not finished at all...

Still need to find the balance at work. Still need to pass that IPPT test. Still need to slim down to 70 kg (BMI 22.5). Still need to complete the Bible. Still need to find time to attend Bible study. Still need to find memory to store Hebrews in my head. Still need to attempt GMAT. Still need to help my friends pass their exams. Still need to find time to learn more about wines! Plenty of things to accomplish - YES. life is full of promises and opportunities. Life seems meaningful when you are "Mr. Brightside". Life IS meaningful when work is only one sentence in my to-do list for this year.

Fitter, Happier and more productive. I hope everyone reading this would pardon my self-rhetoric and join me to embrace the next half of this year!

Since yesterday, I took on the role of a full-time mum and housewife as my in-laws went for a short holiday. The day just seem to pass so fast. The routine goes like this.
When the alarm rings at 6.45, I make breakfast for the family. At 7am, Jo will wake up and smile alot. He looks the most radient in the early morning. Then he'll have his milk and play a little. Almost an hour after bath, he'll take his morning nap. This usualy last about 2 hrs. During this time, is my chance to get the laundry done and wash up the dishes from breakfast. If I'm lucky enough, I may get the opp for a news read or email check. This takes me to about 12 noon.
I can see the little boy strectching is his rocker, tossing and rubbing his eyes. If I don't get there soon, my ears will suffer from his screams and shrieks. Lunch time is my most hateful period. I try to feed him some unpolished rice paste. The preparation is not that difficult compared to the delivery into the little boy's mouth. He needs continuous feeding and contact with the spoon. 1 sec slow and you find him booing and blowing bubbles. Now all the paste is over the chair and my shirt. Worse still, he helps himself to his fingers, making a mess of everything. By pulling his hands out of his mouth, he shows his displeasure by spitting the paste again. OMG! I couldn't stand it. Cute the action it may be but certainly not when a massive clean-up is required. Worse still, my mil don't seem to have this problem. I feel sick. Anyway, by 1, the worse is over, now is time for me to play acrobat and entertain. Juggle the ball, make funny faces and noises, sometimes teach abc to a un-interested child. One act that doesn't suit him and there goes the yelling and booing again. *sigh*
By 2 plus, he will grow tired and bored, its time for his 2nd nap of the day. Phew.. now its the time for me to clear up all the gimmicks and toys that i have taken out just now. Ironing clothes plus preparing for my lessons when school starts. Also have to start taking out the frozen food for cooking later.
At 4, its milk time again. The acrobat returns. Normally, i will try take him out for a short walk to woodlands mart and return to bathe him. He is a han bao-bao. By 6 to 7, a short nap is needed or else face the yells again. the problem is this little boy doesn't have a fix time table. So a lot of trial and error needed.
After dinner is fixed, at about 8 plus, its time for a clean up and last meal before he retires to bed. An hour later.. the little boy finds zz monster creeping up to his door and he becomes cranky. Its time to pat gei ta sui.
Suprisingly, everything ends by 10. In the past with tuitions and so on.. 10 is the time Guan and I reach home. In fact that's an underestimate. A child needs a normal family, routine life. Despite all the booing and raising my voice and small disciplinary actions, I am glad to have a go at this lifestyle. At least i feel like a mother. A mother, entertain and perform to see his smiles, yell and scold only to hear his cries. However, I think I'm better at working like a mad dog at my paid job. Family and work... to what level of integration is best? This require wisdom and the Lord's blessings. An open heart and a logical mindset.

Probably everyone who went to church camp has something favourable to write in their blogs - I was told early Sunday morning during breakfast that the camp was one of the best ever. Had a good preview when one of the speakers shared during sunday school and morning service before the camp, and I did regret that I couldn't attend.

Well, the "cannot-make-it(to the camp)" people were "revelling" back in Singapore over excessive pasta/pizza at Pregos, followed by overdose of laughter medicine at Swissotel Lounge Court. Quite an enjoyable evening, I thought, and it was an unanimous relief that there was no CF on Saturday.

Contrasting lives at different lands. I wonder whether I will be the remaining one of the two when rapture takes place.

Faithless, I am.

This day i found myself having to visit the doctor after fighting a stomach flu of abdominal pains and lao sai-ing for 2 days. I was to fight to the end to save the medical costs since mc is not needed. But too bad.. spent $34 bucks for some medicine and the doctor pressing and listening the stomach.

The worst thing is that the minute i got home from the doctor, I felt instantly better..as if I had drank some recovery potion over there. Its so weird that some things are never done till money is spent.

I think the medicine is taking some effect. My stomach still feels a lingering pain but its bearable. Its the medicine working right? It must be.. Come on.. I'm telling myself that the trip to the doctor was a wise choice. I wouldn't have gotten any better without it. Make my $34 worth.

When you fold your hands, the thumb is nearest you. So begin by praying for those closest to you—your loved ones (Philippians 1:3-5).

The index finger is the pointer. Pray for those who teach—Bible teachers and preachers, and those who teach children (1 Thessalonians 5:25).

The next finger is the tallest. It reminds you to pray for those in authority over you—national and local leaders, and your supervisor at work (1 Timothy 2:1-2).

The fourth finger is usually the weakest. Pray for those who are in trouble or who are suffering (James 5:13-16).

Then comes your little finger. It reminds you of your smallness in relation to God's greatness. Ask Him to supply your needs (Philippians 4:6,19).

Interesting..

Feels pretty good to have a break now. The best thing is that Jo is able to come home every night. He's getting cuter each day. Can feel a stronger bond now. Great! The other thing is Guan is also having a week off due to his wisdom tooth extraction... Hm.. but think it hurts terribly and there's nothing much he can do with that injured gum.

Am occupied today and tomorrow for some POA enrichment program.. basically am just roting away here, walking around to see what the students are doing.

The MATHS MASTERY TEST is coming on Jun 10.. Oh no.. I have yet to study for it. 2 hrs test.. have already forgot how to do those questions. It was a long 10 yrs ago man. Will have to sit in the library to practise O level questions and probably hire guan as my tutor. I MUST Pass!!

Berd and Li's wedding coming up on sat. Looking forward to that event. Glad and happy for this couple who has come a long way..Congrats.

So that is about what the whole holi's gonna be. Hope it's will be a fruitful one.